Hello Disappointment! I've been expecting you.

And although I do not often meet you
Or particularly care if you stay,
I'd be smart enough, this time,
to carve out a place for you in my heart.

Give up sanity and follow me.. ^__~

See me flirt with insanity time and time again on my Tumblr account.
Enjoy!

http://tulirongbukol.tumblr.com/

17 Years of Friendship.. ^___^

Para kay Talong.. ^_____^

Hay Buhay..

Hay buhay nga naman... na-miss kong makinig sa Sugarfree.. ^___^




"O kay hirap din palang hanapin ang iyong sarili
Sa isang mundong laging nagmamadali
Sa kakahabol ay tuluyan nang napagod at napa-upo
Naisip ko nang sumuko.. Dahil nakita niyo na akong sumablay,
Narinig mo na ang puso kong bumigay..
Hay buhay, hay buhay, hay buhay nga naman"

Dream Wedding Daw.. xD

Dahil tinutulungan ko ang aking bestfriend sa kanyang wedding preparations, hindi ko din maiwasang kahit paano'y planuhin din ang mga gusto ko sa aking future wedding.

"NATURE". Yun ang theme na gusto ko sa kasal namin since mahilig kami pareho ni Mac0ie sa kalikasan. With that ay naisip kong gawing lime green and brown ang motif. Excited kong ibinalita ito kay Mac0ie.

AKO: Mahal!!! may naisip na akong motif sa kasal natin!
MAC0IE: Talaga? Ano?
AKO: Di ba hilig natin ang nature?
MAC0IE: Oo mahal. What do you have in mind?
AKO: Lime Green and Brown.
MAC0IE: Hmmm.. Gusto ko din yan! :D
AKO: Yeheeyy!
MAC0IE: Anu-ano pa po ba ang plans mo sa wedding natin, mahal?

Nagpatuloy ako sa pagdi-discuss ng dream wedding ko. Mula sa invitation ideas, sa aking gown, sa entourage, souvenirs. Siyempre, pati na din sa honeymoon. At dahil dream wedding ito ay napapansin kong pinagpapawisan na si Mac0ie sa laki ng magagastos namin kung sakali. Nang sa wakas ay tinanong ko ang opinion niya kung saan magandang ganapin ang wedding reception....

MAC0IE: Tamang tama mahal! Meron akong alam na lugar na Lime green and Brown din ang theme! Sakto sa motif natin.
AKO: (excited) Talaga?! :D
MAC0IE: Uu, mahal.
AKO: Saan???
MAC0IE: Dyan.. Sa bahay niyo.

** Acheche! **

Hahahha! mmmmmwaaaah! :D

MMDA victims.. :D

eto po ay video habang kinakapa namin ni Mac0ie ang daan papuntang Novaliches.. ^_____^




Opo, nahuli nga kami ng MMDA sa hindi na din namin malamang violation. Ang klaro lang sa amin, malapit nang mag-lunch nun kaya ang dami nang nahuli (nabiktima, is more like it) ni ate na taga-MMDA.. hehe.. Naloka nga ako dito kay Mac0ie kasi P200 agad ang nilabas, eh P50 lang solve na dapat yun! eh dahil mabait siya, nilubos lubos ni MMDA girl at nag-request pa na dagdagan daw! ang taray!

tsk tsk.. idol pa naman ni mahal si Bayani Fernando! ahaha! peace! V^__^V

Two Touching Commercials

I just would like to share with you two of the most touching TVCs I've ever stumbled into on Youtube.

FIRST TVC: "Funeral"

"In the end, it's these small things that you remember.. little imperfections that make them perfect for you."




SECOND TVC: "Gramp Chew" from Thai Insurance. ( this made me cry... )

Note to Self

Come on, Gladys. Don't just appreciate. Practice!

You said you want to be a writer? Is this not your free time? Well then, why the hell aren't you writing?

Reading books won't make you a writer. Dreaming won't make you a writer. Playing Restaurant City won't make you a writer.

Write.
That's what writers do.

Three Trains in One Night

Three trains have pulled out on me... all in one night.

The first train was not in my power to stop.
The other two had thrown me out of its windows.
... And I know I am yet to hit the ground.

I had been there.
And the ground had once provided me with a rocky surface..
cold and hard.. but had cradled me just the same.

The ground and I are friends now.
So there is nothing to fear, right..?

Ngayon at Kailanman Sinenovela

GMA Network proudly presents the sinenovela, Ngayon at Kailanman, a TV adaptation of the 1992 Joel Lamangan film starring Sharon Cuneta and Richard Gomez.

Heart Evangelista and JC De Vera team up for the first time in this latest addition to GMA's Dramarama sa Hapon.

Ngayon at Kailanman premieres this Monday, June 8.

I Promise You This

Would you stay with me for a while? Can I convince you this time to trust me?

I want to know you. I want to know every piece that completes your puzzle. Your misplaced childhood, your hopes and dreams, the music at the back of your mind, the scars you've hidden the deepest, the reason you cry everytime it rains.

No, I won't press paper into your pain.

I understand it's hard for you to tell the stories you'd rather forget. And I know it seems cruel of me to ask about your missteps, failures and letdowns.

I know you are broken. But if you would allow me, i promise you this: Once I'm done putting it on paper, once I've completed your puzzle, you'll see how beautiful your scattered shards are. And how every single piece of it has worth.

Now That She's Gone

aaaaawww.. i chanced upon this song by JJ Lin on Imeem and i liked it.. ^____^

Now That Shes Gone - JJ Lin

Salome

He loves her.
Though she can’t figure out why.

Was it the way she writes him love notes
on the torn pages of her diary?
the tiny hearts she drew on his bare back
with her fingertips?
Or was it the way she speaks to him
in her tiny sing-song voice
saying how she loves him?

He loves her.
Though she can’t figure out why.

Because she is anything but beautiful…
Just a mess of badly sketched lines, painful to the eyes..
She cannot see beauty in the poorly drawn veins
beneath her sandpaper skin.
Or in the monotonous pattern of pores
in her face.

But he does.

And he loves her.
Even if she can’t figure out why.



NOTE: Salome is a character in one of my yet to be written novel.

Taking Charge

I now understand that the feet that pedal this bicycle. . .



. . . is mine.

Things that never fail to make me smile

-Nightly quality time with my Mom and Dad.

-The smell and taste of a good coffee.

-Early morning walks with Mac0ie.

-A look that excludes all else.

-Jelai’s and Ayin’s laughter.

-Meaningful conversations.

-Driving along Eton city.

-Childhood innocence.

-Sunrise and Sunset.

-Mac’s hand in mine.

-Being with friends.

-Writing a novel.

-Excellent food.

-A good book.

-Road trips.

-Ocean.

-Art.

-Music.

-Poetry.

-Rainbow.

-Full moon.

-Daydreams.

-Nice Ukay finds.

-People-watching.

-Strawberry shakes.

-Understanding people.

-Bonding with my cats.

-Two shadows on a wall.

-Singing in the bathroom.

-Photo shoots with Vhojie.

-My arms around my bolster.

-A compliment on my cooking.

-Patter of rain against the roof.

-Sitting on a grass on a windy day.

-Seeing an old couple holding hands.

-sessions with good old Basty, my guitar.

-The Cure’s Boys Don’t Cry and Friday I’m in Love.

Burnout...

In the unutterable silence of this defeated moment, I could not face her marbled eyes.

For how can you explain the stupidity of an adult to the simplistic, innocent mind of a child?

I strove to find the right words to say to make her feel better... But I already knew in my heart of hearts, it would be in vain. Because I also feel her pain and the ache of all those years.. I knew none of the words I could come up with would ever be comforting.

... so I just held her for a long time, covering her eyes... shielding her from the pain of seeing a fire slowly burning out.. no words passing between us, just the wind and the chill that's slowly replacing the fire's warmth.

Doors Closing and Trains Pulling Out

(NOTE: I found this on my drafts. It was something I wrote when i was at rock bottom. Fortunately, a year later, i finally found my place in the world.)



I once had a life—a life where I was known to be an eternal optimist, a go-getter with a ready smile. I believed, with all my heart, in things like fairytales and happy endings. I believed that life, in all its goodness, would keep opening doors of happiness for me and for everyone.

Until that one day.

The one that marked my long and agonizing fall from grace… It had stretched itself out and found me lost, listless and wandering for months at the rock bottom.

With the help of my dear friends, I managed to come out of its doors. But that fateful day already took with it everything that I believed was real. My dreams, my prayers, my “self”.

I stopped believing in good things. No more fairytales, happy endings and welcoming doors. Happiness is a door I shudder to walk into because it seldom ever welcomed me. Maybe it did once or twice. But it was so rare and so long ago. It might as well be from another life.

Like an illusion—a bliss inconceivable, a shadow of my lost self.

Whenever I would convince myself to reach for its knob, there’s always the feeling of being accused of opening what I had no right to… I had been accused of so many things, had been subjected to malevolent criticisms and had been bruised too many times… too many times… I never seem to fit in.

After that day, episodes of my life had seen many doors closing and trains pulling out. I started accepting the fact that I’m wired to endless wandering, to just looking inside warm rooms from the outside… I learned to look at other people’s happiness and smile as if it’s my own. This, I do to create an illusion of warmth. For it is the only thing I can do to shield myself from the cold, heartless nights.

Liligawan Kong Muli Ang Aking Pangarap

Pasensiya ka na
Kung naging duwag ako.
Ilang galos din kasi ang aking natamo
sa pilit na pag-abot sa iyo.

Pagkakamali ko nga marahil.
Kung bakit ngayo’y ang hirap mo nang abutin.
Iniluklok kita sa napakataas na pedestal.
Hindi mo naman ito hiniling.

Pero ngayo’y buo na ang loob ko
Liligawan kitang muli… susuyuin.
Pangako, patutunayan kong
Ako sayo’y karapat dapat pa rin.